I guess I’ll use this little book for anything I want. So I was talking to my friend Ashley and realized that I don’t feel like I’m almost 19; I feel like I turned 15 and stayed that way forever. It’s quite a relief, really; I always thought that adults just got boring, until I realized that most adults are not as mature as I’d thought back then. I turn 19 in 8 days, but I don’t feel like it. I’m just a girl who’s allowed to watch Sue Johanson on Sunday nights and movies with sex and violence, and I’m allowed to play with knives, get called for jury duty, and cook with the oven. I just don’t feel older, which is great; it’s like being a kid who’s allowed to do stuff that was forbidden. Of course, I have responsibilities, too. Damn.