Laura M., age 14, North Carolina

Got home and Mom was in Tarboro. Shannon came over. We watched “Friends” and went on a walk to Sol’s but he wasn’t there. Came home and changed. Shannon left. Went to see “Creature from the Black Lagoon” with Eddie and Karen. Then Eddie took us to Zach’s party. Kissed Sean a couple times. Cool. Came home and Mom showed me a cig that was on her bathroom floor. Where the hell?! Got lectured. God, help me.

Cornelia H., age 25, North Carolina

It rained last night very hard & this morning the whole earth is nearly covered with branches & creeks. It rained on till near 12 o’clock, not so hard though. The bridge went off about 2 o’clock. It hurt the dam a little, not a good deal. It was higher than I ever saw it get. Trees backed up to the corner of the yard. Very cool this evening. Still cloudy. No mail came today as it rained too hard I suppose.

*(Fear in North Carolina: The Civil War Journals and Letters of the Henry Family, Eds. Karen L. Clinard and Richard Russell, used with permission.)

Marcy S., age 62, North Carolina

Pastor Bill came in after school yesterday to talk with me. (Barbara had to leave at 9:45 yesterday morning and I had the 15 students alone, but the Lord was so faithful — He kept giving me ideas to keep the students who had finished their goals occupied. Wiley gave me some bad moments, but even he finished all his goals!

Bill wanted to know where I stood, what my feelings were. I told him that I wanted to believe he was a man of integrity — that I needed to know that. He said he knew he’d been accused of being a liar but he couldn’t defend himself without involving someone else — “I cannot touch God’s anointed,” so I don’t know sho that is or what has been said.

Cornelia H., age 25, North Carolina

I have given over the loom & gone to finish Willie’s apron. All are well. I finished heeling some stockings for the children before supper so I sewed till bedtime. Mr. Boyd sits in my room till he goes to bed. Atheline sleeps in the room with me. Mr. Henry came home after eight at night. It has been raining all day, a mist rain but about dark it began in earnest & Mr. Henry very wet when he got home.

*(Fear in North Carolina: The Civil War Journals and Letters of the Henry Family, Eds. Karen L. Clinard and Richard Russell, used with permission.)

Laura M., age 14, North Carolina

(Lunar eclipse.) Okay day at school. Kind of flirted a lot. Courtney Olive told Mario not to talk to me! Didn’t see Shannon hardly all day. Karen called me. Got my hair cut 6 inches! I really like it. Went to Los Tres with Eddie and Em. Went back to Eddie’s and watched TV and did homework. Shannon and Luke stopped over and tried to kidnap me but they couldn’t. Should’ve. Watched moon and talked to Karen on the tele.

Marcy S., age 62, North Carolina

Lord, I need your quickening power today. As the result of about 20 people (who want the Eibells to stay) calling Va. Beach on Monday, they, the Eibells, are coming back today. Yesterday Barbara told me that Roger was leaving the school. She and Kermit, Tommy and Ann Johnson, the Weathersbys, Ann Boyd and Irene are all leaving the church. Mitchell took all his PACES, etc. home yesterday afternoon. Jo Ann will probably withdraw Wiley and Laurie. Oh! I was so confused and distraught, but by Your Spirit, Lord, managed to stay somewhat composed. Ann Boyd called me right before supper to ask if I had heard anything from the Lord — no, because I’d been too upset. I just can’t walk out and leave the school, yet I don’t know how I can stay, feeling in my heart that Bill Eibell is not a man of integrity. I want to believe that he is, but so many things point the other way.

Last night shortly after we’d gone to bed Bill called from Va. Beach — he’d heard about Roger leaving (but not Mitchell) and wanted to know how I was doing and if I could manage today until he got here. Barbara said yesterday that she’d probably be back today. Bill sounded so concerned about how I was doing, and said we would talk when he returned. Lord, please give me Your wisdom to know what to say to him. He is still my pastor, but the time has come for honesty — at least I think it has. Put a guard on my lips, Lord — let me not say anything that will grieve Your Holy Spirit.

Someone is coming down from Va. Beach tonight to inform us of what transpired at a closed meeting of the Rock Church board this week. Oh, Lord, let the truth be known, whatever it is! We have walked in the dark for too long.

Laura M., age 14, North Carolina

Bitched at Shannon — told her she was a ho and she’s easy. Yep. Went over to her house and did homework. Dad picked me up. Had dinner at his house. Did more work. He talked to me and said that Alex is the best friend I have and that I dumped him because he told on me. Wrong. I cried and told him he’s wrong. Talked to Courtney and Karen 3-way.

Cornelia H., age 25, North Carolina

Cool & foggy. Corn doing but little. Uncle Jimmie Gudger was thrown from a mule & his neck broke today. Mr. Henry will not return tonight. Zona had a slight fever. Old Mr. Boyd is here trying to get the loom a going.

*(Fear in North Carolina: The Civil War Journals and Letters of the Henry Family, Eds. Karen L. Clinard and Richard Russell, used with permission.)

Laura M., age 14, North Carolina

Nothing much happened today at school. Went over to Shannon’s til 4-ish. Came home and studied some. Mowed the lawn. Actually liked it. Talked to Karen and she told me that Shannon kissed Alex and then kissed Eric while Alex was unzipping her pants. What a ho! And she didn’t even tell me! Watched TV. Talked to Sean. Wrote Chrissi a birthday letter. Wrote Shannon.

Cornelia H., age 25, North Carolina

Mr. Henry started to Haywood this morning to buy meat. I did but little today. Mrs. Fanning put the cloth through the harness slay, started it to weave. I fear it will do but little good. Dan Hawkins came to work here today.

*(Fear in North Carolina: The Civil War Journals and Letters of the Henry Family, Eds. Karen L. Clinard and Richard Russell, used with permission.)